and it's been months but the pining doesn't stop. it doesn't make sense, when someone doesnt want you, has moved on with their life,...that's when you are suppose to put on that big boy suit and man up. These winds chill me to the bone and I am 3000 miles away from what i use to call home, I'm dwelling on going back to the Salton Sea maybe there's forgiveness there for me. Maybe some miracle. At least a place where I can hang my head and confess all my sins for I am sorry for all the hurt... There's a difference from being alone, to being lonely. It's when you're not wanted, rejected, dejected that's when you're lonely. Guilty in the court of supreme doubt. All food doesn't taste rich no mo. Beauty is an allusion. Advice occupies space in your brain in the same compartment reserved for third rate activities like vacuuming the carpet or riding a motorcycle. Salvation Mountain is only a mile away. I don't know. I don't believe in no miracles anyways. This chill is to the bone. The bones core. I found a runaway doggie in New Mexico, runaway doggie lasted 'til West Virginia. Fuck. Didn't even give you a name little runaway doggie. Nice cornfields out there though, tall and thick. I pulled over and ran into the fields and after 10 steps I got lost.. I guess there's good acid in NY. Three people told me that. No luck. I'm 37 and look like an undercover cop. Fuck it. I'm going south. Deep south. Allman brothers.
There's a billboard for motor lodging, '$20 right off the mighty mighty Missississippi River' 13 hrs. later, Mississippi mud butt fucked by a fattie with a microwave burrito and her family when they swiped my card and overcharge. 'It's for the safety deposit boy!' No shit. Safety from you fucking me. Don't steal from the poor, bitches, is there no honor among thieves? Mississippi mud butt fuck.
What are u's doing? says an old black dude. I'm looking for the crossroads. I say. The crossroads? they built a damn Kennedy's Chicken on top of that shit...
Fuck it. Kennedys Chicken like the Kennedys Chicken in Harlem, that cheap motherfucking rip off of KFC, what the fuck....
and it's been month's but the pining doesn't stop.